life and things

Some days it feels like the pain is gone. Some days it just won't go away What to do. .. No idea. Hurting so bad. Really difficult to get over being lied to *

Wow! I feel relieved. I just typed a long email to C And I have opened up about everything. Now he knows I know.. And I was so sweet about it because that's how I really feel. You know.... Wow. I am so much better. It doesn't pay to just mull around and keep things inside. Somehow a heavy load has been lifted from my head. I am so relieved. And we have just had an hour long talk. Conclusion- this relationship was jazzed somewhere along the line. Another one down. That's the end. In my mind now he's taken and that's it. I said so many things. But at least I also got answers. Somehow he just lost it. And it's fine like that. To cupid I dash you your man. Have him,enjoy him. Love him,do whatever you please with him. How could we have been so happy with each other and then suddenly everything I do is wrong I'm sad a bit You know why ? I still love him. Imagine this! I don't know what I'm missing right now .. Is it the ne...

Somehow somewhere We are just waiting for that time The ultimate time. *

My memories of the times I spent with you leave me soft and moist and happy that sometime in my life I got to experience what bliss feels like. What it means to wake up beside someone you love. To be with someone who understood you completely and whom you knew eevry inch of. I can never forget the times we sat talking. Hours on end. Gisting.laughing.pouring our hearts out while I talked to no end. I loved every second of my life with you. Forever may never be ours. Ive given up on us already. Inside I know.. u r irreplaceable. Maybe I'll marry someone I feel as deeply for. But the truth is that I gave my soul. I may never get it back. Yes.  It belongs to God. But where humans are concerned u have a good part of me. I love you although sometimes it feels like I dont. Deep down inside I know thia transcends love. If there ia anything deeper. You are it. Yea you. You. You know yourself. My button eyes. The one who has defied all nicknames. Y...

Looking around for support and wishing you weren't ao far away. I need to talk to you and I wish today was your call day. I pray for you and I know God is keeping you. I really want to say to you all that is on my mind and the fear I feel. I dont feel like writing these exams. I am at the lowest ive been in a long time. Im probably approaching clinical depresion because its getting harder to fjnd the things that will makw me happy or smile. I have no eeason to be joyful. I have to keep living and acting like I really care about being alive and going through the motions How many times can a man be broken and rise again I just want to go on vacation Somewhere far away where I can think about my life and everything. No activity A beach. Something. Just lay. Think Do nothing. Watch people live Get it done with. I miss you fbi. Come back soon and be a fixermeupper *

Breakfast - 2 slices of bread stuffed with sardine fish mashed into a paste with flavoured margarine,low fat and one boiled egg and water Lunch/snack- m and m small pack and water - this was the cheat for which I had no lunch. Dinner- rice one serving spoon ,turkey and one cow skin with beans. Taken green tea and hoodia caps. Energy still low Recovering from malaria. Working it up slowly xoxo

The truth being that I just can't deal with life anymore I don't have zeal,drive,nothing The only person who can talk me out of this is away in the field and really I don't know if he still enjoys un burdening I'm going through a lot physically and otherwise in my head and it's a difficult time for me. I've alienated myself from my colleagues,I'm trapped inside myself. I don't think I can go on. I just want to lie In bed all day. I'm sad. I don't believe God sometimes. Everyday I ask for a sign that he's speaking to me. No fighting spirit left The me here and the me who tweets are different. This is the broken me. Soon as I leave here I put on a cloak. Now I understand how simone battle was able to appear functional when she was dying inside. Do you call this a cry for help ? I don't think so. I thnk what it is is far worse My thyroid is ruining my life This is my active conclusion. xoxo

I'm not ready At all I wish I could care but I don't. I'm reading but somehow inside me it's like I won't pass or I don't deserve to I'm broken inside completely Something has given way inside me and I don't enjoy life anymore Sometimes I'm motivated like earlier today I wanted to lose weight and do something good for myself Other times I just want to lie down and mope My thyroid is getting bigger I think I'm going to ask for tft's done I'm worried It's impacting on my energy levels and everything I need to do a detox too I'm getting weaker by the day. Too damn sad to do anything. This isn't about being heartbroken. I was but not anymore I can't be mooning over someone I likely won't even take back if it came to that. I mean, someone smokes,drinks and isn't as spiritual as I'd like. Catholic Igbo Same things he cited as being the reasons why we were breaking up. Not going again. One e...

I went to work. I ate about half a cup of peanuts 350mls of pepsi - the pepsi was a cheat just for today. I had pills to take and I don't take pills with water! I never ever take pills with water. It doesn't happen. I also do not drink water. It's bad but I hate water. Anything else but water please! Came home and ate One unripe plantain. Chicken Fish Veggies. Nutri C drink -low calorie. I used the nutri -c to drink 500mg green tea and 25mg hoodia. I'm in bed reading right now. xoxo

This is not about c His chapter has long closed I'm done whinning about all that until I remember something else. This is about a lot of other stuff This is about how I feel sad about my weight I don't feel like I can operate optimally at ths weight I feel weighed down. Fat! At 55kg A fat neck,protruding thyroid too. I am hypothyroid That's why I'm always depressed with a sore throat every few months That's why I sleep a lot and have gained abdominal fat. I've been online and searched for natural remedies. I haven't really seen anything conclusive I think what I'm going to do is go in on my vitamins,try to lose some weight and see if my metabolism will pick up. I noticed it's running a bit slow now. Plus I need to do some detox. I'm going off milo and milky stuff for a while. Perhaps non dairy creamer will be what I'll use and then subs with hotcholocate ..plain low calorie chocolate About time I also started making my own...

How do you feel when someone lied to you from the beginning of a relationship until the end ? Manipulated you even. Played games with you. Gave you the food his girlfriend cooked which by the way I never ate .. Funny yeah. How that saturday before we went to church together he didn't call me for a second. Then on sunday he shows up and we go to church and return home to a pot of stew and already cooked rice. I should have asked myself how efficient one guy could be. Luckily I had my bands in. Seperators. I could barely chew and I didn't eat much. I never ate anything else in that house in all the 5months we were together. I mean, something was always going on in my mouth or I had eaten outside before we got home. On two occasions we ate out. This particular time, I got to the airport and almost missed my flight. Almost at the aircraft door someone who knew I was coming suddenly said he had to go for service with his brother and family because 11am service was the only service t...

Let me tell you a thing or two about how medicine runs your life .. You have exams in 6months. You begin to delay your life You can't make clothes, you can't travel, you can do nothing until the exams are over. You read and read but your confidence is never above 50% If as a doctor you don't have a relationship with God through medical school,it may be difficult to ever come to love him. Many scaled through by grace or kept repeating classes. There is no carryover in medicine. You fail, you resit You fail resit You repeat class You fail repeat You resit You fail repeat resit You go home! No more school. You don't do semesters. You do years So you only go home when you have passed an exam. It was always a dread. As a PG med student It's worse. There's so much pressure to perform You have to live life, deal with heartbreak, find a balance between work,study and other activities and still manage to look like you care what's happening in t...

I'm a month older today by the way. xoxo

God I just need grace You know I can't do this on my own I just need some help from you dear Jesus! Help me. I am a wreck as of today. I haven't done anything useful. My day was wasted. It appears I blog a lot but the truth is I really have no one to unburden to In the world today,nobody really wants to hear you. xoxo

Broken In need of mending Getting over the hurt Picking my pieces together. So slow Taking so long Of moments,lost forever Lost in time Thoughts Of deceit No gain All pain Slipping from the hold A piece of shattered heart Nerve fibres broken All it will be Healing So long Of moments,lost forever. xoxo

My heart is bursting with emotion. Somehow the pain is easing off and I'm finding myself again. I'm asking the usual questions Speaking with the holy spirit Saying to myself Baby, what are your dreams ? Dare to dream Because c had a dream it came true for her. My dream was once to be married to a fantastic man. To be pregnant and barefooted in his kitchen. I gave him my heart, my body, my soul. But he said he didn't want my tribe He rejected me. My dream before then was to be married to another guy, a wonderful person. My first soulmate whom I now am indifferent to. xoxo

I'm so happy for these two. I can't imagine the level of intimacy two people would share so much they would travel for a vacation together before they are married Don't get me wrong but I won't be checking into countless hotels with a man who hasn't legalised me. This aint about me though. As the stalker that I am, I went on facebook and whoo! The status made me go awww- Living beyond my dreams and a picture by the bay holding railings face up to the sun smiling. A happy woman in love ! I actually hate c for leaving her to come date me and causing me so much pain. Someone who loves you that much ? Aww, shuks no! My idea of a vacation won't be holding a railing somewhere though although I'll do that. I'm all for pristine beaches and dainty feminine deals and stuff. I love travel but I sincerely can't afford it now neither will I know where to go. He lived in italy abi where for months so he def knows where to take her. She's happy and that's w...

Sometimes it hurts Other times You just take it all in stride and walk on. Yes, for the past to days I was beside myself in pain. I thought of everything from the beginning Cupid's clothes in his house Spread everywhere Hairnet Underwear Nightwear House shorts Entwined with his clothes I had to ask myself why c would lie to me. This was in January. Six weeks after we started dating She was back in his life. Those things weren't there the first time I visited. What amazes me is that even when he came back from dubai,usa. Her things were in his house still. Every second I was gone,she was there. It hurts me to no end. And I may never recover from it I can recover from someone not loving me anymore because they are human. I can't recover from lies and deceit How do I look him in the face ever again ? This is why I didn't go to their office that last lagos trip. I saw his car and I said to myself I'd rather not go to south africa than see him. So I told the cab to pass....

Have you ever been heartbroken ? I doubt. You'll spend days,months going over every little detail of the days when you were supposed to be happy. Analysing everysecond thing , every thought .. You cry at the slightest provocation. You can't do anything Right now I feel like I've lost the will to live. I can't read for my exams. Of course you'll say I'm foolish. But I can't I can't will myself to do anythhing else I'm typing posts about heartbreak all day. It's crazy. I know I'll get over it I keep imagining them on vacation together and cursing the day when I found that facebook page. I know someday I'm going to get over it. People are just so wicked. With her firmly entrenched in his life he took me in and used me for a spin. I am beyond broken There has to be a level after broken Like a wrench driven through you. It hurts so much you feel the physical pain. xoxo

So some drama ensued on sunday morning I was in my corner trying to move on with my life when it all came to me. Rushing like a wave of discoveries. I had been dating someone who was still actively involved with his ex girlfriend. Infact I don't know if I was the other chic or the real chic. Her clothes were in his house and he claimed them to be for his sister. I even washed her negligee the last time I was there. Maybe he liked me or something But I simply can't understand what I was doing there while she was still in his life. I try to imagine that's probably how it felt for FBI's second to the last girlfriend. But I wasn't even in the picture I let him do his thing and I didn't even show up until it was over. Yes, I know I've always been in the horizon but not in such a way as to destroy another woman's happiness. I don't know what parents seriously allow their child to travel alone with a man who hasn't married her. What if they go to some c...

I'm crying then I stop to ask myself a few questions. Did he deserve me ? I was totally honest to him about everything. Did he deserve me ? Did she know about me ? Did she call him delibrately all those times? Did he have good intentions for me ? What was his motive ? All the food he gave me did she cook it ? I'm questioning everything that happened when we were together and I'm trying to make sense of it all. I'm only going to pray for healing for my heart and thank God for the life I have. For I used my hands to wash his girlfriends clothes thinking they were for his sister. I'm wondering if there has been any other humiliation like this. But I promise myself one thing. 30years is enough lessons already. I've had the last one from ce and c the lady in question perhaps innocent of all his doings and I don't owe anything. I don't want to say she knew he was dating someone else or what she thought. I don't want to say she sat somewhere laughing at m...

They say it takes months to get over someone. Somehow I wish I hadn't discovered c and his girlfriend or unearthed the can of worms that had existed there before I arrived. I'm just crying because of how foolish I must have looked and thankful to God that I have been removed from such a potentially harmful situation. Someone already loves you to the moon and back, why did you need me ? You broke up with her but she had personal effects all over your house. I'm not saying I'm anything special here. Afterall, I had my own kind of situation with F and we have arranged ourselves. I didn't deceive anyone with him. I just can't get over the discoveries I've made this morning. As far back as when he made the b facebook page, she opened a page for herself. No prior facebook info before then. All the months before we broke up, consistently updating whatever was on b page. I don't know how to feel but I'm just saying to myself incomprehensible words. Things I ...

I found your soulmate on facebook. So nice. She's pretty. You've known her for four years and just 2weeks after we broke up you were still her soul mate. And chika is her sister. The one who was baking in your house and who owns the baking things in your fridge. And a she's size 6uk and the owner of the shoes you claimed are for your sisters friend. And the owner of all the clothes I found in your laundry bin. Nightwear,house pants, hair net. When your sister is a size 10 You know I checked out your sister on facebook that night and immediately knew she wasn't the owner of those clothes. Same reason why you would let me spend 100k on air tickets within one week because you didn't want me in cupids way. Notice how I started keeping my bag on the table ? I didn't want to desecrate her home. She owns you. If you could tell me all those falsehoods when I was supposed to be the one you 'cared for' I didn't say love because you didn't love me. It fee...

If I don't hear from God tonight It won't be a comfortable night Everything seems uncertain now I'm just wondering if I've ever had it this bad before There's potential in me I know it but right now, I feel alone M called me tonight The one I don't love To say his pastor called him Told him to leave me alone I guess this is the end. I've been scared that if he leaves I won't find someone to marry I prayed to God for a sign Received nothing Unless this is the sign I'm resigned to God. xoxo

Well, He suggested it Brazenly and subtly. I don't know what the idea is with guys and threesomes. It makes them live out fantasies and is born out of watching pornography ? I really can't tell. One thing I know however it that a guy who respects and values you. A guy who wants to wife you, won't ask you to bare down to your very nakedness and frolick in bed with another woman or watch him give himself to one. There are simple rules that govern the world and things go wrong when we try to circumvent or do it our way. The quiet soft spoken answer to a threesome should be no. But this question should raise issues in your mind that must be resolved before the relationship continues. 1. Does he really love me 2. Does he have an interest in another woman 3. Does he watch porn ? 4. Does he love God 5. Does he have other sexual fantasies that may become problematic to our relationship ? Answer these and you'll find the truth. xoxo

Someday my tears will dry. They will come to an end. My weakness will fade And I will have a good story to tell. Depression is real. When you burst into tears for no reason. When nothing brings you joy You stop taking care of yourself You can't be happy no matter how hard you try You lose motivation. You try to be strong but can't The future looks bleak. You starve You eat too much. You sleep too much You don't sleep at night thinking or you wake up early to think. If you're going through any of these, you are depressed. If you have thought of killing yourself it is severe If you are hearing voices and seeing people it is severe and you are now psychotic. Seek help. For now I'm just on moderate and I know it will be over soon. xoxo

This is what he said to me : Jeremiah 15:16- 21 xoxo

When you don't know what the future holds The present can be so bleak. I'm weeping asking God to save me from a marriage without love. That's because it appears like that's where I'm headed. That song 'Aint no sunshine when I'm gone' Sounds like 'Aint no sunshine in my life' It's dark clouds and raining skies just the way it has been here. I cry so much I've got crows feet Give me hope A ray, a glimmer That's all I ask from you Lord I'm weak, I'm down. I'm looking for something to believe in. This life hurts! It's cruel!! xoxo

This is the email I sent to my ex- after he walked away. Months later after april, I'm still crying and despite asking God to heal my heart I'm still hurting. Don't delete this email even if you're upset. It's my form of closure and if you've got anything to say, let me know. You may not though. I think you already 'walked away' so you've probably dealt with everything before now. I was really upset with you yesterday. It seems everything we were before your inability to forgive, u have completely forgotten. The things that endeared you to me and the times we shared before you decided that one christmas trip would be the end of us. I still remember how upset you were and how you changed after then. I still remember how you stressed yourself looking for network to talk to me when you were in owerri. After then, everything just seemed set up to fail. You didn't give us a chance after then. All the issues you raised aren't enough to walk away fr...

So you know what ? The sister and I are all chummy now And I have told her I dated her brother It took two days of awkward tales. But it came out. And what happened next ? It's like we are building back what we had. Things got awkward for a bit And guess what ? She's totally adorable No wonder I fell in love with her brother. xoxo

A time comes when you have to repent and move on from the things that displease God I've always known God but I often strayed Now I'm fully back on track and it's hard to remember how it feels to do those things I did before. I've forgiven my ex for now and I've moved on to other things. I'm busy setting up shop and I'm reading. Iife is good now. I miss 'him' - the only one I will ever love regardless of what happens. We spoke last night. xoxo

I still remember bumping into my boo of then days at about 12am-1am after the do and he was chatting away furiously with another chic. Guy thought I'd gone to bed and I just walked in on him doing the deed. The shock was amazing. He coulda peed right there I just acted like you know I'm a fool I see nothing. It was disastrous. I knew right then we weren't going to last much longer It took a week after that. So sad .. So sad Because I really hoped we could build something despite the differences. You see, he's catholic I'm not A different tribe I didn't mind that. But knowing his tribe only like to marry each other I knew problems lay ahead. Let's not get started about the money gist. That's for another day. xoxo

They actually are. The moment it gets captioned relationship everything goes awry. Sometimes in this need to give a dog a good name after hanging it you decide to 'make do' The best friendships I have had weren't relationships. They had no titles and those were the most faithful times of life. Maybe calling something a relationship is an attempt to chain oneself into believing a falsehood Something like- We like each other enough If you really like each other enough Nobody will hold you apart I guess I'm all for open relationships now Seeing as it makes for less heartbreak and less deceit. Que sera sera xoxo

Let's analyse this issue clearly There is no doubt that after saying yesterday I wasn't heartbroken I've changed my mind Today, I am. I had dreams, plans , I felt I'd found someone who would hug me back and hug me from behind while doing the dishes. Yes, it happened. Twice After that, the hugs lost meaning I could feel like I was the one hugging Then this one time he kissed me after looking at my braces and said 'It's working' I have those memories Slowly coming back I blanked out for months. Now I'm actually facing what has gone. I miss the fellow Despite all the things he said I miss what we had Going back to the doctors quarters over the weekend, it hit me hard. We made a memory there and it won't leave me. I'm strong I know I go through these things and I come out alive at the end. But I'm still looking for the tears to cry. They just don't come Do you know how you want to cry But the tears don't come ...

The answer is NO! You just shouldn't. There are some things that shouldn't be questioned and this is one of them. You don't sleep with two people in the same family. Cousins maybe but sister is too close It's like incest. Think about the dynamics. Do you really want to create a rift between family members just because you must fall in love ? You should actually look for love somewhere else besides a family you already dated in. Awkward won't begin to describe family events if you were introduced to the family prveiously. It's a no no! You already know this , so why are you seeking to justify what you are planning to do ? xoxo

So the ex directed me to his sister for some business and we got chatting. It felt awkward really because I'm saying to myself 'No babes, I don't want to be friends with you even you are so sweet because I don't ever want to see your brother again' I don't even want to be in a situation that will make me see him. I was to do some payment thing with her but when I passed by their office and saw his car, I just skipped on ahead. I don't think I want to see him ever. Not because I hate him so much but because I don't like being embarrassed. He rejected my calls 2x on the occasion when I was calling about this same business issue. They run a travel agency. I kind of have this tendency to stick to businesses/people I know although I don't know if a past relationship affects work ethic. Reason later why I prefer to deal with the sister at his suggestion. I don't even want to believe I dated him. It's surreal and it's heading into th...

'Are you still in love with your ex ? ' 'What matters is we are together now' 1month later 'You and my ex have similarities. You both are frugal with money and often have a lot stashed somewhere but you don't lend' 'I am a very vindictive person' 1 week later ' It's not just thoughts and actions that have dwindled, the sex is not as interesting as it used to be' xoxo

I'm heartbroken Very heartbroken I'm considering getting married soon. But to whom ? Someone I barely love ? The bitterness and the pain of my last attempt at a relationship after 7years or more has left me traumatised. I can barely have a waking day without thinking of how I got involved with a spiteful person who had the mind to tell me he's a vindictive person and that he planned to pay me back for disturbing him to return money I lent him. Someone who said to me things that have stung and hurt for months after. I wonder how another human being could be so hurtful with his words. I really can't get over it. Now is just not the time to be getting involved with someone else. The pain is just too much. I don't know how I can possibly get over it. I'm experiencing heartbreak Not because I want to go back to the relationship but because I was verbally abused. Now I've said it I can finally come to terms with it. Verbal emotional abuse That...

The sound of your voice Saying mean things The way you looked When hatching those plans So different So alluring as in the beginning The illusion of grandeur A little push A little word A little action It all comes pouring From the depths of your heart The truth of your soul. The premium of money The work of laboured sex The things you tried to hide The lies that fell through You only use to be used The honesty you never had Go now and tell it. For she must lend to prove she cares Go now and tell the world She must sex you all night To prove she cares. Go now and tell it She must obey your every command Throw her family away Become lost in a man Who would never be there for her. You must always come first You will never love For you were born to use And used you will also be. xoxo

My last relationship didn't leave me bitter. Infact it didn't have any impact on me It was based on a lie. Someone who was purely interested in sex. Made it the bedrock of the relationship. Talked about sex for weeks. Asked about previous partners. You would almost feel like he would have loved to be there in the past. Eventually he said he would like a threesome. I'm got wondering. There are many reasons why a relationship can break down. Asking for a threesome is one of them. If it doesn't end right then, know it will sometime. Any man who doesn't respect you enough to open his mouth and ask for such is already shopping outside. I think we lasted a month extra after that. And the breakup line or pre breakup line Was 'The sex is not as interesting as it used to be' Are you a sex worker ? Or am I a prostitute you pay to have sex with you every day so I should work my ass off to make sex interesting. How interesting can sex be when yo...

The answer is NO. You know you don't want to. You're just here searching for a reason to prove it yourself. I've done it before and it was used against me. See, never tell your boyfriend how much you truly have. Never tell him how much you earn. You must always be broke and asking for support. Let him be a man and learn how to organise his finances. You should never lend him money for business or money to buy a car or rent a house. Take note of this! You will regret it if you do. Maybe not now Not today but sometime in the near future Men are built to provide. If he can ask you for money something has gone wrong. .. To be continued. Xoxo. xoxo

1. Have you bought new bedsheets 2. I hope you wash your towel every week 3. Stained clothes means you're dirty In other news, you were freaking dirty. Don't ask me how I dated you. I have no answer. Perhaps I was searching for love And you came along just in time This is why you go on a few dates before you commit We jumped the gun and slept on the same sheets for 5months. Weeks after , weeks in. We never opened the windows My allergies escalated in those 5months. I never imagined how I would cope in such filth but I stayed there. I guess I hoped things would change or I could change you. Just so we get it clear, I won't have that a second time even if I was paid a million plus. Life is so much better without you xoxo

A.The world is a lonely place.if you look beyond all the noise,merrymaking and glee.beyond the faces of people who seem to have everything.beyond their ice walls and facades.you will see it.a haunted look.a cry from a soul languishing in a myriad of problems.we all have them in our irises.blue black,brown.i looked inside me and it made so much sense.the futilty of it all.vanity of vanity says the ecclesiastecal preacher.all is vanity.from the rising of the sun,all you put an effort to,all you work to accumulate.vanity.the friends you strive to do for in a bid to keep.the love that seems far beyond reach.i have seen this lonliness.i have experienced it.at every point,i feel one more thing i add to myself will cause happiness to abound.but no.it does nothing to solve it.is it lack of someone to share with?that special someone who shares ur breaths,to whom u are most important in the world?have u found him?pray tell me where.and how does it feel?for after u find that person.they become a...

life will definitely be better for all women when we realise just how precious we all are. young ladies out there,don't down and out yourself. you can say no to some person whom you know deep down in your heart doesnt care a dime for you and just wants the love of your body and the pleasure it brings. the guy has to appreciate you and truly see you as a wonderful person before it will make any sense to him that he is dealing with a human being. what with the male sexual reflex integrated in someplace as superficial in the nervous system as the spinal cord. when you know whom you are there will be no need to sit around and wait for a man to complete you. you all need to wake up and smell the coffee. who is going to marry a woman he has fondled and laid up across the wall of a club? the men make us happy.yes they do...when we are in a loving and stable relationship and all the issues and cards are laid out on the table. however,you do not need to go thru all of that just to secure a ...

No kidding. Are they actually giving presents to men who gave children out in marriage this year ? This is how we are celebrating fathers day? I absolutely cannot believe this. I am almost in tears. So this means I have to marry fast so my father can be given a gift in church. How bad can this really get ? I mean, the pressure from outsiders is not enough but now we have to deal with pressure in church ? I feel like a failure sometimes I'm not going to lie about this. Somehow despite all I've achieved I feel like I haven't done a thing because I'm not married. In my heart, I know God's time is definitely coming for me but I don't understand how this has become such an issue that the church has started doing things like this. Once you appear to be of reproductive age, you are besieged with all sorts of questions about when you are getting married. Varied forms like- 'Where is he' When are we coming to eat rice ? When will we eat cake We want to dance Ah, ...

I've often spoken about things people miss when relationships end or friendships have gone awry. I've often wondered about it far more than I've spoken about it. If you've ever really gotten along well with someone and experienced that bond you'll understand this. 'Friendship' How it feels when someone understands you Completes you. Converses for hours Never judges Never undermines Always has your best interests at heart. Friendship is what I miss most. Knowing you've got my back. Talking endlessly about meaningful and meaningless Sharing stories Judging the world but not ourselves. Thoughtful actions. Yes, I miss our friendship. The longest I've had. The most insightful The ways I learnt That this indeed is how God loves. Yes, I miss friendship. That's what matters most. Xoxo

Very few people have reaLly perfect teeth. Even those with seemingly perfect whites when close up have some sort of malocclusion or the other ? Who really has it going I'm wondering ? So you know they say when you lose something big like maybe you go through a major breakup those are the times when you sit back and do stuff you've always wanted to. There's something inside us all that makes us want to better ourselves when life hits us with a situation that makes us doubt the very essence of what or whom we are. This is probably why people lose weight when they end a relationship. Or gain weight Take up a new habit Start some new business Start blogging And so on and so forth. So I was looking on instagram today and saw this beautiful lady who got maRried and her makeup was done by jideofstola. That's what spurred the malocclusion story. She had perfect white teeth. Then I noticed the slight overbite on the right. Wearing these braces has somewhat made me into an orth...

I started wearing braces in 2013 december. I woke up and realised I could actually do it. So I decided to go do something about my malocclusion. Yes I was pretty with it but it was getting worse. Off I went to LUTH. I was introduced to a fine intelligent dentist who got me on my way to a beautiful set of pearly whites. We aren't there yet but it's frustrating in it's own way. Nothing good comes easy they say. One thing I didn't anticipate was all the pain I would have to bear. Imagine having that pain of a toothache every other week. Complete with headaches and what not. Sometimes I feel frustrated like I'm probably not going to end up with what I desire but somehow I keep encouraging myself to trudge on. People ask me questions all the time. From the very ignorant most especially 'Aren't you slim enough ? Why have you tied your teeth' 'What's wrong with you, why are you talking somehow' 'I like your teeth, they're so fashionable, you...