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I'm sick

The truth being that I just can't deal with life anymore
I don't have zeal,drive,nothing
The only person who can talk me out of this is away in the field and really I don't know if he still enjoys un burdening
I'm going through a lot physically and otherwise in my head and it's a difficult time for me.
I've alienated myself from my colleagues,I'm trapped inside myself.
I don't think I can go on.
I just want to lie In bed all day.
I'm sad.
I don't believe God sometimes.
Everyday I ask for a sign that he's speaking to me.
No fighting spirit left
The me here and the me who tweets are different.
This is the broken me.
Soon as I leave here I put on a cloak.
Now I understand how simone battle was able to appear functional when she was dying inside.
Do you call this a cry for help ?
I don't think so.
I thnk what it is is far worse
My thyroid is ruining my life
This is my active conclusion.

xoxo

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