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Emotional verbal abuse in relationships.

I'm heartbroken
Very heartbroken
I'm considering getting married soon.
But to whom ?
Someone I barely love ?
The bitterness and the pain of my last attempt at a relationship after 7years or more has left me traumatised.
I can barely have a waking day without thinking of how I got involved with a spiteful person who had the mind to tell me he's a vindictive person and that he planned to pay me back for disturbing him to return money I lent him.
Someone who said to me things that have stung and hurt for months after.
I wonder how another human being could be so hurtful with his words.
I really can't get over it.
Now is just not the time to be getting involved with someone else.
The pain is just too much.
I don't know how I can possibly get over it.
I'm experiencing heartbreak
Not because I want to go back to the relationship but because I was verbally abused.
Now I've said it I can finally come to terms with it.
Verbal emotional abuse
That's exactly what it was.
Perhaps someday I will be in a position to help someone because I have experienced it.

I don't want to write the exact words he said to me now but in due course I will.
Somehow the end of that relationship brought relief to my soul.
I didn't cry in the beginning
I didn't cry at the end.
Do you know why ?
Because I thought back at it all and realised he never really loved me .
I'm a strong person on a normal day.
Please forgive me when I sound like this.
Very soon, I'll be back to normal.
When I've found healing for my soul.

xoxo

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