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I'm not ready
At all

I wish I could care but I don't.
I'm reading but somehow inside me it's like I won't pass or I don't deserve to
I'm broken inside completely
Something has given way inside me and I don't enjoy life anymore
Sometimes I'm motivated like earlier today I wanted to lose weight and do something good for myself
Other times I just want to lie down and mope
My thyroid is getting bigger
I think I'm going to ask for tft's done
I'm worried
It's impacting on my energy levels and everything
I need to do a detox too
I'm getting weaker by the day.

Too damn sad to do anything.
This isn't about being heartbroken.
I was but not anymore
I can't be mooning over someone I likely won't even take back if it came to that.
I mean, someone smokes,drinks and isn't as spiritual as I'd like.
Catholic
Igbo
Same things he cited as being the reasons why we were breaking up.
Not going again.
One experience is okay for me.

I don't exactly feel like crying but I'm a bit bloated as usual and feeling like a pudgy ball of fat.
I'm at about 55kg now but look at me you'll think I'm 60.
I think I'm retaining fluid
I need water balance veggies and things like that.
A juicer will be bought asap.


xoxo

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