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C and cupid.

I found your soulmate on facebook.
So nice.
She's pretty.
You've known her for four years and just 2weeks after we broke up you were still her soul mate.
And chika is her sister.
The one who was baking in your house and who owns the baking things in your fridge.
And a she's size 6uk and the owner of the shoes you claimed are for your sisters friend.
And the owner of all the clothes I found in your laundry bin.
Nightwear,house pants, hair net.
When your sister is a size 10
You know I checked out your sister on facebook that night and immediately knew she wasn't the owner of those clothes.
Same reason why you would let me spend 100k on air tickets within one week because you didn't want me in cupids way.
Notice how I started keeping my bag on the table ?
I didn't want to desecrate her home.
She owns you.
If you could tell me all those falsehoods when I was supposed to be the one you 'cared for'
I didn't say love because you didn't love me.


It feels like heartbreak all over again.
Just knowing that she was firmly in your life,sleeping in your house while you were 'supposedly dating' me.
Her stuff was all over your house
It was her negligee I washed last time I stayed at yours.
Chike,
People don't work out.
Relationships end.
But why did you have to deceive me ?
Is there anything I had done prior to meeting me that said I deserved that ?

I told your sister not to ask you anything about it but she may have discussed with you... I really don't know if she's told you that we talked about the time I was with you.
Comprehensively.

I've thought of sending this as an email.
I cannot remember your email address.
And I am happy.
So happy about that.
I'll just leave it here because someday ,someday, someday.
We will heal from the pain.
xoxo

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