life and things

Things I have learnt about marriage- It is not about how fast but that good things will always come to those who wait and do so patiently. I will never want to end up with someone I am not comfortable with I want to be happy and I want God to be the king of my home I must must must marry someone who loves God. The things of my past should never be allowed to affect my future I must always give people time to show how much they really care about me in order to avoid doubt in future because i will never stop doubting. people always claim to love u and then do the most horrid and hurtful things u could ever imagine.

worked on the blog today. made it completely private so as usual i have to add you before you can read anything here im preparing for my 4th west africa primaries and my 3rd attempt at national. i certainly am more clever now although i get tired very often and im thinking a lot more about what i'm doing with the my life right now.love wise, work wise i shall pass. this too, shall pass. cheers

Do you know how it feels to be surrounded by people who do not desire you? Like people you could give a pass and say oh,I could be with so and so. It wouldn't be bad if so and so and I were together it could work And those same so so don't think same about u Absolutely horrid condition. I don't think it best for anyone least of all me But it so happens that people like that still exist in my life People like P who has a girlfriend but I barely speak with him anymore So it just gets me thinking sometimes What do I do? Stop talking to these guys completely ? Continue in a facade And so on I continued when I would rather be in the true arms of someone who really wanted to be with me Love and cherish me Each passing day makes it seem so unattainable and so surreal Like something bound for everyone but not me Somehow I still believe God.. If only I could make my belief stronger My resolve firmer and stay strong and certain that it would happen for me Yes..som...

surely in the end all that glitters is not gold. now my hot blood has chilled a bit i do realise i'm a bit of a noisy sort. besides that i find now that if i am not careful i will end up in a mansoon. thats a cosmo word.back in the days of my fascination with cosmopolitan and glamour. now i can hardly imagine i pass them by on a shelf without as much as a backward glance. anyway this is not about them. it about the remorse i feel at my ways. my unchanging and recalcitrant ways.sometimes a bit of a know it all thing too. all that glitters in me is not gold oh! i am special no doubt about that and i am also a clever girl but i think my wisdom may have got the better of me. i did fail an exam. yes i did and its shocking because i thought i'd passed it. amazing right? yeah.anyway these things can hardly tell u how they are worked out now can they? anyway i get another chance soon. i'm basically just trusting God now and learning from thi very humbling episode. o...

it would be worthwhile to ask myself that question and some others too. the one i'd most like to ask myself now is why i am still single at 26. no useful relationship on the horizon and no apparent plans to settle down instead i find myself bungled with one toxic fellow after the other. ah,permit my brashness. one must tell himself the truth one of these days and i guess my time has come to spill the beans you know i have a horrible temper and some certain insecurities. i never believe anyone likes me or love?love?ha that will mean u killed urself and u'll probably be dead by the time i realised u loved me. but i think that is because people alwyas claim to love you until they turn around and do nasty stuff. anyways,i like honesty and bluntness.....maybe thats why u like me too..ha habut it can get excessive. i only wnat to make heaven thats why. so i was saying that i always seem to meet and like people whoo have problems that need to be fixed. either they are not ...

life and things

Things I have learnt about marriage- It is not about how fast but that good things will always come to those who wait and do so patiently. I will never want to end up with someone I am not comfortable with I want to be happy and I want God to be the king of my home I must must must marry someone who loves God. The things of my past should never be allowed to affect my future I must always give ppl time to show how much they really care about me in order to avoid doubt in future because i will never stop doubting. people always claim to love u and then do the most horrid and hurtful things u could ever imagine.