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here is where i am.

Do you know how it feels to be surrounded by people who do not desire you?
Like people you could give a pass and say oh,I could be with so and so.
It wouldn't be bad if so and so and I were together it could work
And those same so so don't think same about u
Absolutely horrid condition.
I don't think it best for anyone least of all me
But it so happens that people like that still exist in my life
People like P who has a girlfriend but I barely speak with him anymore
So it just gets me thinking sometimes
What do I do?
Stop talking to these guys completely ?
Continue in a facade
And so on I continued when I would rather be in the true arms of someone who really wanted to be with me
Love and cherish me
Each passing day makes it seem so unattainable and so surreal
Like something bound for everyone but not me
Somehow I still believe God..
If only I could make my belief stronger
My resolve firmer and stay strong and certain that it would happen for me
Yes..sometimes it just seems that whatever it is that gets other people married and stuff is just lacking in me.
I mean,I haven't a boyfriend
Is there a problem or just a situation of plain missed opportunity
I know there are people who are willing to be with me but they just don't cut it
I can't want them or attempt to be with them
Tried dating O..we went on two dates.
It was just way off.
Didn't fit in
Didn't gel.
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