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twists and turns

Imagine what happened at the end of the day yesterday after gripping ?someone showed up on the horison.cute and funny and kind of queer.
Today I started a fast which actually started yesterday but because of the issues that came up I couldn do any praying.
After praying today,I just decided I am not going to bother myself with certain things e.g if he actually tells people stuff like it is said he does,although I suspect that he does.
I have let everything go so much once and for all.
I have promised myself not to call or sms him for as long as I can and that there is no point to seeing him.
I do not know what to make of all the things I hear and it does seem to me that I don’t know whom to believe now.
However I know that she strongly has good intentions for me and she would not just be talking because she feels like.
Anyway,that aside,I really am moving on with my life and I have come to the point where I'm just on trysting God explicitly.
That’s all.
If I have embarrassed myself at any point with the things I did as a fool in love,then its ok and just fine because I will show those who think I'm no good that I am.
I have cried so many tears for the times when it just seemed like I really fooled myself.
I have thought back to so many issues and I don’t know whom to believe.
I wont push it any further than that and I honestly do not care anymore.

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