Do you know how it feels to be surrounded by people who do not desire you? Like people you could give a pass and say oh,I could be with so and so. It wouldn't be bad if so and so and I were together it could work And those same so so don't think same about u Absolutely horrid condition. I don't think it best for anyone least of all me But it so happens that people like that still exist in my life People like P who has a girlfriend but I barely speak with him anymore So it just gets me thinking sometimes What do I do? Stop talking to these guys completely ? Continue in a facade And so on I continued when I would rather be in the true arms of someone who really wanted to be with me Love and cherish me Each passing day makes it seem so unattainable and so surreal Like something bound for everyone but not me Somehow I still believe God.. If only I could make my belief stronger My resolve firmer and stay strong and certain that it would happen for me Yes..som...